When will it stop?

It seems like every time I see a picture of my sibling, come across their tracks on facebook, accidentally run into them it's like ripping off a bandage. Sometimes I wonder when it will ever stop hurting. What with us maybe moving to Cali it's all been in the back of my mind. Even if my folks don't talk to me at least I'm close to them. If they would just pick up the phone I could be there in under half an hour. Thinking about moving though -I don't know if I'd even get to see them before we left. I wonder. Would anyone even tell me if Dad or Granny got sick? Would I get a chance to see them? You'd think it'd be easy to move away from a family that won't speak to you. It's not.